losing control

I was at the day job, prep­ping for a meet­ing, when John IMs me from home.

Do you want me to plant the pansies?

Inno­cent enough ques­tion, eh? The day before I’d bought 4 six­packs of them, lit­tle white vanilla num­bers that I thought would be good tem­po­rary fill at the front of the new plant­ing bed until I could decide what else to plant and until what I’d planted could begin to fill in. They’d been sit­ting in the sun and get­ting them in the ground would have been a good thing. So I said sure, go ahead.

When I got home they were in the ground, not exactly where I’d envi­sioned them, but attrac­tive. John said some­thing about how 4 six­packs didn’t go very far in the big new bed and how he’d always wanted to do one of those color-zone plant­i­ngs. Big swaths of one color next to big swaths of another. Some­thing big, splashy and com­mer­cial. I groaned a noise that to him must have sounded like agreement.

The next day I get another IM at work. He’s bought more. Lots more. He’d for­got­ten how many plants he’d put in the pre­vi­ous day, so he got a quan­tity that he thought was how much he’d already put in. Instead it ended up being 12 more six­packs. That goes a lot fur­ther than just 24 plants!

So there’s the bed full of the orig­i­nal plain white pan­sies, new dark maroon-purple ones, and another area of new white ones with pur­ple faces. Pan­sies can be okay fillers up close, but spread through­out a gar­den uni­formly between larger plants they begin to look like.….…..well, ever been to the land­fill on a windy day? Lit­tle paper scraps blow­ing every­where? Yeah, that was my first impression.

Note to myself: Breath. Let go. Stop feel­ing like you need to make all the aes­thetic deci­sions. Give it time. They may look per­fectly fine when they grow up in a cou­ple months.

A gar­den is always a col­lab­o­ra­tion, whether it’s just you and the plants or there are oth­ers involved.

November 26 2007 09:24 pm | Categories: gardeningmy gardenrambles | Tags:

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